It's been a while since I've written anything down... I've been so busy I guess. Even now I feel like there is nothing to write. I feel pressure to put something down...get some of this out. Tame the monster as they call it. I don't want to show weakness. I don't want to show any of this...not that there's anything to show really. "You have a lot of things to deal with...a lot of hurt", they say. So does everyone.